Monday, January 29, 2007

Going to court in a couple of hours

I would hoped I had more time to write but it is not so. It is about 5am and I can't sleep. In a couple of hours I will be marching down to the court house. Yes I am a bit nervous but deep, deep down Iam at peace. I listened to a woman speak last night about how her husband was tortured for 2 and a half years in Gutamala...then he was thrown from a helicopter alive to his death. The soldiers who did this, it was found were trained at the SOA and paid by the CIA. She was to be a witness at our trial but the judge would not let her testimoney into the court! Yes, this is the American justice system! I love my country. It is the only country I truely know but this part I am ashamed of.

I want to hold my head high, I want to speak and act with love. It is my highest desire. I am no hero. I am just a woman, a person. But when I hear these stories and meet these people, how can I do any less? How can I not care? Even the worst thing that can happen to me,,,is nothing by comparison.

Whatever happen, I am fine with it. I will ask for probation as I did not cross the line for a particular outcome, but if I get jail time that is ok too...I can only say that because of this vast commmunity of peace makers in St. Louis and beyond who walk with me...Definately not a journey I recommend one take alone!

I am going to try to sleep an hour or so.

Please hold me in the light. and come on the 18th of Feb...it will be a Festival of Hope...a Festival of Peace!

Tina

8 comments:

Just a grail said...

Good luck today Tina!!

Colleen said...

Tina,

I just commented but felt I needed to comment again. I marched this weekend as well, only this time in Washington D.C. I thought of you often and the time we spent over coffee with Diana and Barb, especially since I attempted to speak to as many people as I could about the SOA. I know that you are just one person, but know that your sacrifice stands for many that want the SOA closed.
Peace and god bless,
Colleen Kelly

Carrie said...

Tina
We just heard the verdict. You have been in our hearts all day. You are beacon of peace in our world. I hope you are coping well. I will do whatever I can to help out while you are serving your time. Just let me know.
Much love
Carrie

Rhoda said...

Dear Tina
I have been sending you all my love and energy every spare moment today.
I just heard the verdict...at least you can plan and cope with what is to come now that you know.
I am here for you and the kids ....
let me now about Wednesday when you can..
Love and peace
Rhoda

Patty said...

Tina,

I just heard about your sentence. My heart goes out to you and your family. I'll do whatever I can to help you through.

In peace and love,
Patty

Aunt Dawn said...

Dear Tina,

Learned of your sentence this morning and have shared it with the Friends Meeting. Know you are held in the Light. Some are wondering if there will be any appeals of the sentences?

Want to share with you a quote from Rev. Dr. ML King. It is one I only heard for the first time recently.

"The nonviolent approach does not immediately change the heart of
the oppressor. It first does something to the hearts and souls of those committed to it. It gives them new self-respect; it calls up resources of strength and courage that they did not know they had."

Blessings,
Dawn

Don Thieme said...

I wish you patience and strength in enduring your captivity. The government is making our army train for evil deeds and trying to bury the evil deeds in its past.

s jackson said...

Tina,
I am wondering a few things. First, does it matter to you what impact all this has and will have on your family? I just cannot comprehend how you can put this cause above your family. Do you realize or care about the stress this is causing for your dad and mom and Sandeep? Especially your mom, my sister, who has a heart condition? I worry about her and the friction this must be causing between her and your dad. I think it is expecting way to much of her to ask her to take a turn living at your home and caring for your three children 24/7 in your absence. You surely can afford to hire a live-in nanny for 60 days.
Secondly, who exactly is all this supposed to be helping? It seems all the help, sympathy, prayers, attention, etc. are now being directed solely at you and the other 15.
My comments may upset you, but many of the things you have posted on your blog site have upset me also--so all's fair.
I love you and I worry about you.